Wednesday, March 31, 2010

..poetry..


So I haven't read much poetry since college but just recently a friend of mine told me about a few poems that he liked...so I looked up the author and I liked a lot of his stuff so I decided to post some with a few of my old favorites.

A Question

A voice said, Look me in the stars
And tell me truly, men of earth,
If all the soul-and-body scars
Were not too much to pay for birth.

Robert Frost

Silence

I catch the pattern
Of your silence
Before you speak

I do not need
To hear a word.

In your silence
Every tone I seek
Is heard.

Langston Hughes


This has always been one of my favorites..
The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Robert Frost

Sick Room

How quiet
It is in this sick room
Where on the bed
A silent woman lies between two lovers-
Life and Death,
And all three covered with a sheet of pain.

Langston Hughes

The Dream Keeper

Bring me all of your dreams,
You dreamer,
Bring me all your
Heart melodies
That I may wrap them
In a blue cloud-cloth
Away from the too-rough fingers
Of the world.

As I Grew Older

It was a long time ago.
I have almost forgotten my dream.
But it was there then,
In front of me,
Bright like a sun--
My dream.
And then the wall rose,
Rose slowly,
Slowly,
Between me and my dream.
Rose until it touched the sky--
The wall.
Shadow.
I am black.
I lie down in the shadow.
No longer the light of my dream before me,
Above me.
Only the thick wall.
Only the shadow.
My hands!
My dark hands!
Break through the wall!
Find my dream!
Help me to shatter this darkness,
To smash this night,
To break this shadow
Into a thousand lights of sun,
Into a thousand whirling dreams
Of sun!

Langston Hughes

I know why the caged bird sings

A free bird leaps on the back
Of the wind and floats downstream
Till the current ends and dips his wing
In the orange suns rays
And dares to claim the sky.

But a BIRD that stalks down his narrow cage
Can seldom see through his bars of rage
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown but longed for still
And his tune is heard on the distant hill for
The caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
And the trade winds soft through
The sighing trees
And the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright
Lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged BIRD stands on the grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with
A fearful trill of things unknown
But longed for still and his
Tune is heard on the distant hill
For the caged bird sings of freedom.

Maya Angelou

Sunday, March 28, 2010

...all the day long


So someone at work asked me the other day if I thought that God listened to junkies...I said,"With all my heart I know that He does". He didn't ask any other question and seemed to take my answer well. So I didn't say anything else about it and we never spoke of it after...but his question...and more so the look he had on his face when he asked me is still imprinted in my mind.

That look broke my heart. I knew he wanted to hear my honest opinion...but I'm not sure if he trusted my answer. With everything in me I do not think our Heavenly Father sees labels when He is looking in on us, I think all He sees is His children. Some struggling more than others, some walking down some dark paths, some succeeding and being happy, some barely surviving, some raising families, some lost and lonely, some grasping for hope, some who have already given up,and some who have endured and excelled despite their trials...I think He sees us and where we are on our journey...and like any loving Father is mindful of us, He is aware of our needs and longs to bless and help us. I also think he blesses us with people in our lives that are going to strengthen us and help us when we are at our lowest point...I know this seems easy to say and don't get me wrong I have had my fair share of days where I felt alone and was unsure if I was worthy of those blessings...or even worthy of His time and concern..those were sad and lonely days...but I have never doubted His love... even for one like me.

There is a scripture in Jacob that says
"And how merciful is our God unto us, for he remembereth the house of Israel, both roots and branches; and he stretches forth his hands unto them all the day long..."

I cannot even begin to tell you how many times that particular scripture has comforted me... to know that no matter what hour, no matter what the circumstance... His hands are stretched forth towards me..all the day long.

I hope he believed me when I answered his question...Because with everything in my heart I know that what I told him was true.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

...Not such a bad choice...












So initially I wrote out this long play by play of what I did on my two extra days off..but I wanted instead to show you the pictures I took when I went up to Big Cottonwood Canyon and Ensign Peak. I also saw this graffiti art that was done on the side of a building that I thought was beautiful.

These pictures are far from great...and at first glance you might think that this particular day looks cold, gloomy, and sad..but in actuality despite it being overcast the day was stunning... I was in awe at how beautiful and majestic the snow capped mountains looked up there. The air was crisp and clean and it was peaceful and quiet. Ensign Peak was also AMAZING. Then to be in the heart of downtown Salt Lake and see this piece of art on the side of a building that hundreds of people pass by everyday. It was all just so ...beautiful.

Salt Lake really has the best of all things..the city is great with it's old buildings that have so much character and history, to it's diversity, to it's art and music scene...it's a great city without being too overbearing. Then all you have to do is travel about an hour and you'll be in some of the most amazing mountains I have ever seen in my life.

I stood up there at Ensign Peak and thought about all of that and I realized that I could actually see myself living here for a long time. A piece of my heart will always long for the simple life of the islands, the lush green mountains, and the healing powers of the ocean...but I have come to appreciate Salt Lake and Utah in general..and am grateful that I chose to live here.

Monday, March 1, 2010

... Sharing those talents...





Last Friday night I went to an art show featuring local artists. It was beautiful, haunting, disturbing, powerful, and inspiring. I was in total awe by how they could translate what they were feeling into these amazing works of art. I also just got back from touring the Utah Opera. Now I'm not really into Opera. I like some classical music and some instrumental tracks,but I was blown away when I sat in on their rehearsal tonight. Their skill, talent, dedication to their art and just their pure enjoyment in what they were creating was so moving. I'm grateful I live in a place that is so rich in diversity and culture.

PS. Don't get me wrong I am very grateful for my talent of 'being a good friend" but sometimes I am a little envious...of those with the more obvious talents :)

Freeing....


...Today was okay....there has been some stuff that has been worrying me or on my mind but I'm learning more and more that no matter what I could do, or think I should do, or am aching to do...sometimes the answer is to...wait and see, or to just listen, or to walk away all together. That is difficult for a die hard "fixer" to do or even to admit...but it's also freeing to not feel responsible for every little thing that happens or to beat myself up over things that are out of my hands. That being said...I am still far from being a master at the whole "Let go, and Let God" thing; however .... I'm optimistic.